Mary Pettigrew: Reflections & Renewal

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Saturday, September 28, 2013

This Too Shall Pass: A Query

QUERY


This too shall pass -
I'm beginning to question this common phrase. Slowly...out loud yet, quietly,
repeating each word I attempt to discover and dissect -  
I ask myself, what does this phrase really mean?  What does it mean to you?
Strangely imbedded in my mind, I realize my hopeful mantra has now become
a daily affirmation for strength and acceptance of self.
A query of which I deliberately ask myself, seeking clarity and answers
in my world - attempting to understanding the truthful simplicity of a question residing in the meaning.  But, what does this phrase mean?  More importantly,
what does it mean - to me?

This too shall pass -
I wonder...am I merely giving myself verbal permission to brush little unpleasantries under the carpet, assuming they will certainly work themselves out? Maybe…
Am I self-soothing with this vocal pacifier for a mistake made, a bad decision?  Sometimes.  More often than not, I seem to require coddling from a self inflicted punishment caused purely from poor judgment on my part. Shaming myself is more fitting...I think...it's my history and what I'm used to.  Or, is it much simpler than all that? Am I kindly reminding, merely re-assuring myself of true realization?  This absolute, finite existence that is Karma?

This too shall pass -
As I repeat these words to myself, the saying begins to lose its impact and actually sounds a bit lazy and somewhat flippant. Hmmmm.
I chuckle, because as usual, it's quite easy for me to OVER analyze and
deconstruct something that's merely supposed to be simple, easy, and appropriate no matter what the need or desire may be.
The words are always the same and always said in the same order. However,
the meaning of each word can take on as many forms or tones as I require - or desire in my search to move on and create order in my life!  Yes, the words are always the same... THIS TOO SHALL PASS.  No one ever scrambles them up in attempt to change the intent or the power of the phrase - or to make it sound trendy, more unique.  And so, I've decided that the answer to my query is obvious and it is clear...I own it…it's mine…it works for me any time I need it.


I'm still learning to pay attention to my body's language and have discovered that I breathe a little deeper when my mantra is uttered. My shoulders drop down and are relaxed. That irritating little furrow, residing between my eyebrows is diminished.  My voice softens, no longer frenetic, and it slows to an easy tempo...and I smile because I feel peaceful…and it’s a strange feeling that is so delicious!   So, allowing myself to use this oh, so common, repetitive phrase for my own private benefit is freeing…when I need to be freed the most. 

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Mary Pettigrew: Reflections & Renewal

A haven for sharing creative writing, art/music, & stories of MS/chronic illness

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Location: Dallas, Texas, United States

Texas,USA ~ Welcome to my world of creative writing, music, art...& living with MS.

Saturday, September 28, 2013

This Too Shall Pass: A Query

QUERY


This too shall pass -
I'm beginning to question this common phrase. Slowly...out loud yet, quietly,
repeating each word I attempt to discover and dissect -  
I ask myself, what does this phrase really mean?  What does it mean to you?
Strangely imbedded in my mind, I realize my hopeful mantra has now become
a daily affirmation for strength and acceptance of self.
A query of which I deliberately ask myself, seeking clarity and answers
in my world - attempting to understanding the truthful simplicity of a question residing in the meaning.  But, what does this phrase mean?  More importantly,
what does it mean - to me?

This too shall pass -
I wonder...am I merely giving myself verbal permission to brush little unpleasantries under the carpet, assuming they will certainly work themselves out? Maybe…
Am I self-soothing with this vocal pacifier for a mistake made, a bad decision?  Sometimes.  More often than not, I seem to require coddling from a self inflicted punishment caused purely from poor judgment on my part. Shaming myself is more fitting...I think...it's my history and what I'm used to.  Or, is it much simpler than all that? Am I kindly reminding, merely re-assuring myself of true realization?  This absolute, finite existence that is Karma?

This too shall pass -
As I repeat these words to myself, the saying begins to lose its impact and actually sounds a bit lazy and somewhat flippant. Hmmmm.
I chuckle, because as usual, it's quite easy for me to OVER analyze and
deconstruct something that's merely supposed to be simple, easy, and appropriate no matter what the need or desire may be.
The words are always the same and always said in the same order. However,
the meaning of each word can take on as many forms or tones as I require - or desire in my search to move on and create order in my life!  Yes, the words are always the same... THIS TOO SHALL PASS.  No one ever scrambles them up in attempt to change the intent or the power of the phrase - or to make it sound trendy, more unique.  And so, I've decided that the answer to my query is obvious and it is clear...I own it…it's mine…it works for me any time I need it.


I'm still learning to pay attention to my body's language and have discovered that I breathe a little deeper when my mantra is uttered. My shoulders drop down and are relaxed. That irritating little furrow, residing between my eyebrows is diminished.  My voice softens, no longer frenetic, and it slows to an easy tempo...and I smile because I feel peaceful…and it’s a strange feeling that is so delicious!   So, allowing myself to use this oh, so common, repetitive phrase for my own private benefit is freeing…when I need to be freed the most. 

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