Mary Pettigrew: Reflections & Renewal

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Sunday, October 20, 2013

"The Sleeping Game": An Insomniac's Poem




The Sleeping Game



Insomniac routine -
'Tis unwanted playtime for
My brain.  Frenetic bed-time activity -
Been here, done this before - chronic
Noise filled solitude ensues.
Welcome to the sleeping game.

The players are me... and me.
Nightly, recruited by a forceful scout,
I unwillingly participate in
Irrational game play, pleading forfeit -
Such a request overruled, denied.
There is no regard for season, inclement weather,
No empathy for injury or illness -
No one gives up, no one quits.
The match between brain and body…
There is no winner.

The game ensues, becoming quizzical.
To-do lists, NOT-to-do lists, WHY-did-I-do-that lists -
Permeate my conscience in search of answers,
Full knowing, it's all for naught. No matter…

3:00am has now come and gone.
Momentary common sense, rational thoughts
Attempts to mediate the scuffle, fleeting
Separate grandiose vs. fantastical reality.
TIME OUT...for now -
Acceptance of moiety will suffice…for now -
Until tomorrow, when the game resumes again...

As it always does.


MPP:2013

3 Comments:

Anonymous Dawn Herring said...

Mary,
I loved this poem aptly describing insomnia; love the inside head game you describe and the lists...Ha! I'd be tempted to say, journaling before bed helps. ;)

I love your blog, the books, the color, etc.

Good day to you. :)
Be refreshed
Dawn Herring

October 23, 2013 at 2:07 PM  
Anonymous Mary Pettigrew said...

Dawn,
Thanks so much...insomnia is a bugger & we all have it from time to time. I keep a notepad next to my bed because, once in awhile, I get some great writing ideas to tackle later! Your comments mean a lot to me!

October 24, 2013 at 5:11 PM  
Anonymous Mary Pettigrew said...

Dawn,
Your comments re: the poem as well as my entire blog, mean so much to me!

October 24, 2013 at 5:29 PM  

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Mary Pettigrew: Reflections & Renewal

A haven for sharing creative writing, art/music, & stories of MS/chronic illness

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Location: Dallas, Texas, United States

Texas,USA ~ Welcome to my world of creative writing, music, art...& living with MS.

Sunday, October 20, 2013

"The Sleeping Game": An Insomniac's Poem




The Sleeping Game



Insomniac routine -
'Tis unwanted playtime for
My brain.  Frenetic bed-time activity -
Been here, done this before - chronic
Noise filled solitude ensues.
Welcome to the sleeping game.

The players are me... and me.
Nightly, recruited by a forceful scout,
I unwillingly participate in
Irrational game play, pleading forfeit -
Such a request overruled, denied.
There is no regard for season, inclement weather,
No empathy for injury or illness -
No one gives up, no one quits.
The match between brain and body…
There is no winner.

The game ensues, becoming quizzical.
To-do lists, NOT-to-do lists, WHY-did-I-do-that lists -
Permeate my conscience in search of answers,
Full knowing, it's all for naught. No matter…

3:00am has now come and gone.
Momentary common sense, rational thoughts
Attempts to mediate the scuffle, fleeting
Separate grandiose vs. fantastical reality.
TIME OUT...for now -
Acceptance of moiety will suffice…for now -
Until tomorrow, when the game resumes again...

As it always does.


MPP:2013

3 Comments:

Anonymous Dawn Herring said...

Mary,
I loved this poem aptly describing insomnia; love the inside head game you describe and the lists...Ha! I'd be tempted to say, journaling before bed helps. ;)

I love your blog, the books, the color, etc.

Good day to you. :)
Be refreshed
Dawn Herring

October 23, 2013 at 2:07 PM  
Anonymous Mary Pettigrew said...

Dawn,
Thanks so much...insomnia is a bugger & we all have it from time to time. I keep a notepad next to my bed because, once in awhile, I get some great writing ideas to tackle later! Your comments mean a lot to me!

October 24, 2013 at 5:11 PM  
Anonymous Mary Pettigrew said...

Dawn,
Your comments re: the poem as well as my entire blog, mean so much to me!

October 24, 2013 at 5:29 PM  

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