Relapsing Remitting Melancholia

I started writing this poem years ago when I was feeling very lost in my life.  Besides having MS, I was dealing with a lot of overwhelming challenges.  Life happens...and it sometimes it really sucks!  But, always remember, "this too shall pass".  Therefore, when I pulled this poem out tonight, I decided to re-make it as two parts...kind of like "Act 1 & 2", if you will.

RELAPSING REMITTING MELANCHOLIA 

I.

Body numb, mind hopeless

Despair and fear un-relentless

Giving in to exquisite pain, my solitude

Losing my grip, myself with senseless magnitude -

Daily plans feel meaningless

Nightly dreams lack peacefulness

Gasping, grasping tether - latitude - longitude

Needful - yet disbelieving in life's gratitude -

           

Absent years, lifeless stares

The bottle sedates, sensory impairs

Words and passion unraveled, unglued

Thoughts of love and life never pursued.

II.

Defining drama - realize, accept it fully

Own it, embrace the melancholy

Surrender, release, do silence better

Pray for peaceful breaks in the weather -      

           

Daily plans offer harmony

Nightly dreams encourage epiphany

Desiring, designing new paths from life's longitude

Hopeful - believing life's gratitude.

MPP 2012

Relapsing Remitting Melancholia

I started writing this poem years ago when I was feeling very lost in my life.  Besides having MS, I was dealing with a lot of overwhelming challenges.  Life happens...and it sometimes it really sucks!  But, always remember, "this too shall pass".  Therefore, when I pulled this poem out tonight, I decided to re-make it as two parts...kind of like "Act 1 & 2", if you will.

RELAPSING REMITTING MELANCHOLIA 

I.

Body numb, mind hopeless

Despair and fear un-relentless

Giving in to exquisite pain, my solitude

Losing my grip, myself with senseless magnitude -

Daily plans feel meaningless

Nightly dreams lack peacefulness

Gasping, grasping tether - latitude - longitude

Needful - yet disbelieving in life's gratitude -

           

Absent years, lifeless stares

The bottle sedates, sensory impairs

Words and passion unraveled, unglued

Thoughts of love and life never pursued.

II.

Defining drama - realize, accept it fully

Own it, embrace the melancholy

Surrender, release, do silence better

Pray for peaceful breaks in the weather -      

           

Daily plans offer harmony

Nightly dreams encourage epiphany

Desiring, designing new paths from life's longitude

Hopeful - believing life's gratitude.

MPP 2012